...am I about to lose my mind?

Honestly, I think I am going mad. On top of my finals this week, I also have to deal with a member on my team WHO DOES NOT WORK. Mocks is in ten days. TEN DAYS, YOU HEAR ME AND WE ARE NOT READY IN THE LEAST BIT! NOT ONCE SINCE THIS GIRL HAS JOINE OUR TEAM HAS SHE WORKED OR GOTTEN ANYTHING DONE ALL SHE DOES IS SIT AROUND AND TALK ABOUT GUYS OR COMPARE US TO OUR HOMELIFE AND WHEN I FINALLY HOLD HER ACCOUNTABLE, SHE TELLS ME SHE CAN'T TRUST ME! AND QUITE HONESTLY, THAT THE DUMBEST EXCUSE IN THE WORLD AND FOR GODSAKES, WHO THE HELL HELD HER ON THEIR SHOULDERS DURING EFFING ADVENTURE DYNAMICS?! THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH TRUST- THIS HAS TO DO WITH WHETHER OR NOT SHE CAN BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR HER ACTIONS, AND OBVIOUSLY SHE CAN'T.

Gods, Skyler, why did you choose to leave me now? Someone told me that the day after you died, the grief I was feeling would be "the bottom of the bottom, and it couldn't get any worse then this." But even though I don't always feel like that, it does come back. And with the pressure of everything that is happening right now, in tenfold.

And a lot of times, I'm really mad at you for this.

But.

How can I be? I love you so much, loved you so much. You were like a brother, and a lot of times, I didn't realize this. But I do now.

And Victor? I love you too, man. Even though I can't see you anymore, you were so cool. Even though I did once kick your shins into a bloody pulp, it was a sign of likingness. Or whatever. I only beat up those I like. Ask my friends. They'll share their bruises.

And Hilary- I'm not mad at you. Wait...wait, yes, yes, I am. But just because I'm mad at you doesn't mean I hate you in the least bit. A mother can get angry at her children, but that doesn't mean she doesn't still love them. We're a team. We need to act like one. Thats all I'm saying.

Mimmsy- I loved those letters you sent me. They are beautiful. I read them over and over again for inspiration/help. You're so awesome.

Estie- You're just flat out kick-ass.

Alyssa- sorry for getting angry. I've been on a short chain lately and its only getting shorter. You know I love you and everyone else in the possee more then anything.

Noreen- <3 teh Boys Next Door.

Annnnnnd... I think thats all the people I needed to talk to.